these recent events encourage all of us
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my son :)

I can't imagine

I am really really missing Jason today :( these times come in waves, doing daily chores,doing the mundane...... and then it strikes, his face,his humor , his smile, his hugs.......makes me so sad...so so sad, then I pray, I cry , I hope, I lose hope, I pray, I cry.....over and over and over again.....this is the hardest thing I have ever been through...and I think to myself.......THAT I HAVE BEEN THROUGH?,...what about Jason? I cannot imagine sitting in a cell, 24 / 7......accept for maybe one hour a day outside,and that is in a cage , like an animal......innocent yet sentenced to life with the chance of parole.......can you imagine? how would YOU handle that? Jason makes me proud on how he has been able to remain positive, or at the least sane.....Lord knows the plan for my first born. HE is HIS....I love that, I suffer and I hurt.....but I know in the end , if Jason knows HIS saviour , then HE will meet me in paradise one day. I pray Jason can hug me at home before paradise ! Please keep him in your prayers for his battle is long and hard.......

Some of the sad history........it is all so plain and simple here,but justice is illusive :(

http://www.okkids.org/documents/Review%20of%20the%20Death%20of%20Natalie%20Emami%20Day.pdf

Please keep Jason in your prayers , for personal safety.......thank you

Hearing the birds sing, watching the yard bloom,smelling all the smells of spring........wishing Jason could feel the wind on his face and smell the smells.... I wonder how he maintains sanity where he is....I am proud of how well he is doing considering his life right now.... I miss him so... He writes all the time and I live to get those letters.. I sent him 10 books this week, so glad there is no limit, wonder where he will put them all...... I love to think of him just staring at the pictures we send.  I try to send pictures of trees,outdoor spaces........I wonder how hard it is for him to see his nieces and nephew growing up and not being able to really know them....... He hasn't been able to touch one of them for 3 1/2 years now..... I am thankful for the visits we have..... Lord , please comfort him and surround him with peace and knowing that YOU are there with him all the way......... I miss you Jason, miss your humor,your smile , your hugs.......hearing you say Hi momma......love you momma...... for now..... I stay in a place of trust and peace with my  God and knowing His plan for you is better than anyone knows........ 

Letter from Jason.......its the little things !

I just had to share this letter from Jason,first one so far,written before we saw him,but sent after.

Guess what mom ?

" I got to spend 1 full hour in the sunlight,first time since Feb 09, I just layed down on the concrete to soak up as much as I could. I know you've seen those outdoor kennels for dogs,well,that is what I get,I get to come out to it 5 times a week for a hour.It was absolutely amazing ! I got to see grass,tree and rocks ! And even some cattle, lol ah`,but it truly is the little things that matter in life. I can't describe the immense, spiritual lift that has provided, I 'd forgotten the acutal feeling of sunlight hitting the flesh, I 'd also forgotten how much the outdoors means to me,. I feel that through this experience, HE is letting me know that my time here will be a better , healthier place for my body and soul."

This letter brought me to joyful tears, goes to show you ,even in this horrid time, there are blessings for us all